Until I was married (and ever since I was a young girl), all i wanted was babies. Forget the husband, I just wanted babies. I always feared that my body would give out before the time would come for me to have them.
Now that I am married and children are more of a realistic near future, I'm scared sh*tless. I won't lie. I am a Type A. I plan and i prepare myself for the loops, bumps and turns that life throws at me. But, because I know you can't plan everything, I do my best to think of all possible scenarios and outcomes. That way, I'm prepared.
But come on, moms out there are laughing at this point thinking... nothing prepares you for children until you just have them. There is no point in planning ... or planning to the extent that I am thinking this through.
But please humor me. I'm a planner. It makes me feel better. It makes me pretend that I may actually have some semblance of control of something I know I won't have control of... and perhaps that is what freaks me out.
I'm also a bit scared b/c I know I will be pretty strict and hard on my children. Even with the Husband, I find myself at times making unrealistic expectations and have to pause... stop myself. I am my father's daughter.
so in the first step of Family planning, I have met with my Ob-Gyn to discuss various things on Friday. Aside from going through family history of diseases and illnesses, we also discussed various immunizations that I have had. I had done a blood test in September 2010 and never got the results of this (one reason why I ended up changing Ob-Gyn), so my new Dr was able to get those records and luckily (since they drew blood yesterday for the pre-op), I didn't have to give more blood and I don't need any vaccinations! YAY!
The Dr. does want us to consider getting a genetic screening test. I've decided if my insurance covers it, I will for sure. If not, then the expense is about $350... and I am still considering it.
The Dr. mentioned four main reasons to do genetic testing.
- Be aware. Just knowing can give you peace of mind or better equipped to handle a situation should it arise.
- Be Prepared. Knowledge is power, right? You can educate yourself. You can prepare your home. You can know that if a symptom occurred, that it may be a product of the disease and not wonder what is wrong?
- Know your alternate options. Let's say the husband and I find out that we both carry a recessive gene for some disease, we can then evaluate our options: No children, Children with the chance of the disease, conceiving with other sperm/egg to avoid the disease, or now with technology - you can do pre-implantation screening where the egg/sperm are evaluated before implanted into the uterus.
But you have to wonder, sometimes ignorance is bliss... What would you do if you had the option of knowing there was a chance? Would that change your actions? I don't know what I'd do, its a very hard question to answer - but if you want to share with me your opinions, I'd love to read them!