After Thursday's meeting last week with my specialist about my Fibroid and Cyst, I received a call on Monday morning to the effect of "your blood test is positive. Seeing that you are pregnant, we may not be able to proceed with your surgery. We need you to go your ObGyn's office to get a beta test so we can confirm b/c your HCG levels are a low but definitely showing that you are Pregnant." I just dropped everything. Whaaaa??
I'm sure you can imagine, me running around like crazy. I didn't know what to do first. Do i call my Husband? Do i tweet it? What to do... So first thing I did, I squatted... i grabbed an EPT and I tested. Since I already knew she said my HCG levels were low, I didn't know if my EPT would show a positive...
But this is what I got:
|See how the second line is VERY faint, almost unphotographable but it detected something|
So I got in the car, stopped off at the Husband's work - showed him the EPT. Explained the situation. His response "Super sperm!!!".
Of course we were thrilled, scared and excited. We weren't "trying" yet, and only went off the pill in December (figured Id have to adjust for a few months first), and hadn't even had a full cycle and he hit the bull's eye... The egg has been fertilized. That was a big deal b/c I didn't know if i had any eggs, were they dropping, am i fertile? etc... normal things us older woman think about, right?
At 4:45 AM tuesday morning, my alarm goes off to take my BBT. I woke up and it had dropped from 97.61 to 97.27. When I saw that, my heart sank. It had steadily been increasing and I knew this could mean one thing, the fertilized egg wasn't implanting itself. It makes sense of course. I have a fibroid. A submucosal fibroid does this... prevents conception. I had a hard time falling back asleep.
Everything was confirmed when I got the Beta test results later that morning and my HCG level had dropped to 19. In essence: The Egg was "FRY"ed but the plate to serve it on is broken. Good news, the stove was ready to go and is working... What we had was a case of a "chemical pregnancy", in short a miscarriage of sorts. Basically your body reads like its gonna be pregnant, high HCG levels, but for whatever reason... the pregnancy disappears.
Don't worry y'all, before you feel too bad - we are both being very positive about this and here is how I'll break it down.
|Good News||Bad News|
But the worst news is that the baby would have been due mid-September to End of September which would have made him/her just in time for ... Halloween and their costumes.
So ... I was pregnant for a day. Chemically I could still be pregnant, since Monday was a 19 HCG level and that's more than "below 5" HCG levels, but in my mind b/c I know its not going to implant, my pregnancy started yesterday with that phone call and ended today with the knowledge of the beta results. But i'm not gonna be sad, but rather focus on how this IS for the best ... and that is something I don't have a doubt about.
Encouraging words are always appreciated. ^.^